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My breasts will never be heavy with milk
And my womb will not carry lives
A growing seed will never make my belly swell
So my body continues to cry bloody tears
The hips of mine are round for nothing
My soft face and my curves tell lies
Because they tell us that I am a woman
When I am a sexless worthless fool
So my heart is filled with guilt
About a woman who either can't or don't want to get pregnant.
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RainbowHarvey Featured By Owner Jan 5, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
It is so true. It is almost impossible for me to get pregnant for many reasons. But it is alright, since I am fairly asexual in mind
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Paddyeahh Featured By Owner Jan 5, 2011  Student Writer
Yes! I've been thinking a lot of pregnancy and motherhood etc since my cousin tole me she was pregnant. She's only 18 and it'll be my grandma's first great grandchild and I felt a little bit old because I'm the oldest of her grandchildren. I've always wanted to have a child when I'm about 27-33 years old or so, after I've been studying and travelling and so on- if I ever get children. But at that moment I felt strange and I realized that I couldn't get children before 25 even if I wanted to because that's the legal age for insemination or adoption here. I mean, I would never want to sleep with a man again.
And you already have so many lovely and special babies in your life! :D If you get your own one day by adoption or so I bet you would be a lovely mom but even if you don't get any children you're still a very sweet and motherly person who is needed by many special kids. :love: I'm also pretty asexual in mind. I have a low sex drive, I don't know if it's because of traumas, because of medication, both or if it's just the way I am. A little of all perhaps. I could sleep with someone if I had romantic feelings for her, but I don't have casual sex anymore because it's not for me. I don't mind, there are so many other things in life than sex. :D And platonic love is romantic...:floating:
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RainbowHarvey Featured By Owner Jan 5, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
That is so interesting. I am exactly the same way. My romance is mainly expressed through portraits and poetry.
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Paddyeahh Featured By Owner Jan 5, 2011  Student Writer
I love to express love, friendship and affection trough art! Art is at its most beautiful when strong feelings are involved.
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RainbowHarvey Featured By Owner Jan 5, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
Yes it is. And it means so much more than physical love. Hmm, unless it is this. :smooch: Now, that was about equal.
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Paddyeahh Featured By Owner Jan 5, 2011  Student Writer
Awwww. :love:
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RainbowHarvey Featured By Owner Jan 5, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
Yes, that was just right for me :smooch:
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Paddyeahh Featured By Owner Jan 6, 2011  Student Writer
I'm glad for you. :smooch:
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Lili-Aelys Featured By Owner Dec 30, 2010
That's remind me about a woman I know ( from Canada ) : she never had her periods and then she couldn't have children... then she adopted 2 little chinese girls ( now they are about 7 and 12 years old ) :heart:... But I think that Fate does always it has to do, I think that if a woman can't have children, that means something, and perhaps not just for her !
That's my way of thought :aww: even if that's not a happy thought...
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Paddyeahh Featured By Owner Dec 30, 2010  Student Writer
Aww, that's a lovely story, I bet her children are so precious to her! :heart:
Yes, it might be that way! :O
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Lili-Aelys Featured By Owner Jan 4, 2011
She love them a lot, and they are so cute too :love: !
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Paddyeahh Featured By Owner Jan 4, 2011  Student Writer
Aww, how adorable! :love:
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Lili-Aelys Featured By Owner Jan 7, 2011
:love:
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Zondergrod Featured By Owner Dec 27, 2010  Professional General Artist
I don't have a comment that says anything beyond being spoken to by your work. So I'll just share a work of my own that touches on the subject as well [link]
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Paddyeahh Featured By Owner Dec 27, 2010  Student Writer
Such an interesting poem! I liked it a lot.
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Goldfish-In-Space Featured By Owner Dec 26, 2010   Writer
so what is this poem's message?

I can see why it would be sad if the woman wanted to but couldn't become pregnant. The woman in the poem defines her womanhood with her fertility ("because they tell us that I am a woman"), so it fits. However, if she doesn't want to have children- a conscious choice- then I don't understand why she is "a sexless worthless fool" or why she would feel that her "heart is filled with guilt." These things come off as negative, as I'm sure they are meant to, and they work in the poem, They speak for someone in this woman's situation, which readers could guess is in the camp of trying but unable- they don't speak for women trying to avoid pregnancy or who never want it.

I like the dark, real aspect to it. I think someone who was trying but unsuccessful probably would feel very much like this. You've chosen your words carefully and well, and it shows in the tone of the poem.

I enjoyed it very much.
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Paddyeahh Featured By Owner Dec 26, 2010  Student Writer
Thank you for your thoughtful comment on my poem!
You're right about the message- I bet it's devastating to want to have children but remain unable to produce any.

The other way to view it- to feel like this but still be childless by choice- is a personal matter to me and actually the main reason I wrote this poem. It's the feeling of guilt when I realize that I won't bring my parents grandchildren (I'm 20- perhaps I'll change my mind in five or ten or twelve years but this is how I feel right now)- most of my relatives got children at a very young age and since I won't do that I feel old, infertile, almost less than a woman. I know that people aren't disappointed in me but even so I can't help but think "what if they are". So it's the world's view of a childless woman, the imagined world's view of one or her own view of herself on a bad day.

Once again, thanks for your comment.
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Goldfish-In-Space Featured By Owner Dec 26, 2010   Writer
ah, okay. I didn't get it that it wasn't entirely her own view, because it's written in first person.

I did figure there was probably a personal reason to have it out this way, but you never really know, huh?
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Paddyeahh Featured By Owner Dec 27, 2010  Student Writer
Yes, I can understand that.

Mhm, exactly!
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JasonVoorheesMyLover Featured By Owner Dec 26, 2010  Hobbyist Writer
this is so sad :blackrose:
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Paddyeahh Featured By Owner Dec 26, 2010  Student Writer
Aww. Thank for your comment. :huggle:
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JasonVoorheesMyLover Featured By Owner Dec 27, 2010  Hobbyist Writer
You're welcome :hug:
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TrivialViolets Featured By Owner Dec 26, 2010  Hobbyist Photographer
This is really good (=
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Paddyeahh Featured By Owner Dec 26, 2010  Student Writer
Thank you! :huggle:
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